In good news, I was not fired at the end of last week, like I feared I would be. In bad news, the corner office is looking over my shoulder much more closely, and there is talk of me and my assistant assisting the new guy who's coming onboard (to take my favorite job duties away) in April. I'm just trying to be patient to see how that will shake out.
I have started looking for new jobs. We are fortunate to live in an area with lots of job opportunities, but my particular career path doesn't have a lot of options around here. It's sort of like when you make movies so you move to California because that's where movies are made. The industry I'm in is kind of like that, though of course you can find possibilities all over the place. They're just not as plentiful. So, the big question I'm asking myself is "Do I want to leave so bad that I need to change careers?" And that is really hard to answer. I've applied for one job so far, at a nonprofit. I have a friend who used to work there and she recommended it to me. Aside from that, I'm trying not to be frightened by the prospect of change, and to just start getting my resume out there.
Over a month ago, before all of this craziness began, I had volunteered to host my mother-in-law's birthday celebration this coming Saturday at our apartment. We've never had Husband's whole family over before; his sisters haven't even seen our current apartment. But, I am now regretting this decision, because I am so tired. Trying to work extra hard in my job and looking for a new job already have me feeling close to the brink. I'm still trying to figure out what to cook for the dinner. And don't get me started on how much cleaning there is to do here. It's a lot.
Finally, the thing that makes me need to just hang on until Easter, I ovulated WAY early this cycle. Like, CD 15. Which was 5 whole days earlier than last cycle. It makes me seem, gosh, normal! Now, Dr. C said that late ovulation is just what my body does and she doesn't think that impacts anything regarding TTC. This change in timing happened because of the increased dose of tamoxifen I took this cycle. This means that I've been in the 2WW for a few days already, and P+14 will be Easter Sunday! AF may be showing up right around then, but if she doesn't...maybe there will be good news! You know, beyond the Good News. I've already told November how hopeful I'm feeling. So very hopeful. Please, Lord, let this be it!